Alice,
It's been a while. I missed you so much that everyday hurts just remembering your lovely face. But I'm here, in the city of dreams once again. To revisit my journey while I'm in college.
It's 2013. Yes. Another wonderful year has passed and a new one waiting to be kept in our enchanting hearts as we embrace it wholeheartedly. I'm so happy that another year has come to each and everyone on this planet and we get to live another day with hope that our lives will be better for the future.
YEAH RIGHT.
I can't believe that time flies so fast. Each day that the sun would rise, I would stay positive for the duration of the day. However, at the end of the day, another burden strikes to my "almost" perfectly good day because someone or something ruins it for me. I would ask myself, "What did I do to make her/him feel that way? Was it something that I said/did? Why do people stay away from me? I did nothing to them..." These questions still haunt me until today. And everytime I'm close to finding out these answers, people who hate me will do anything just to prevent me to see the truth. I can't imagine that your friends would be your lethal enemies once you broke their trust. It's really hard to fix that "broken" trust of theirs.
What bothers me the most is their "diva" attitude. When they insult a person, they would feel that they're on top of the world like nothing can touch them anymore. Reality Check, they are still persons. Persons who don't give themselves self-actualization and self-esteem just because they have insecurities. I don't know if this is true anymore but I still believe that they are still insecure because they don't want their identities and reputations to be destroyed by a single snap. So many people hate me because I speak like I'm a child, never understanding what's happening to the world and always thinking about himself that he is always right. Everyone is right at most cases. I just don't get why people hate me so much. Is it because I'm too smart for them too handle? Or is it because I can outsmart them?
2013. New Year, New Attitude. That's right, I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and bask in the limelight. I have to show them that I am a person with promise and with great power. I have to let them feel what I have felt when they left me with nothing. This time, I will not feel their sympathy because feeling them could be my weakness and my breaking point. And this time, they will witness the new ME; A strong young adult who cares nothing about the people around him and trashtalks them like there's no tomorrow. No more Mister Nice Guy. It's time for me to show them all how they picked up on the wrong guy.
As they say, "Forgiveness is a Virtue, but Revenge is Sweeter".
How about you Alice? Do you thirst for Revenge?
Nathaniel
