Runaway

Alice,

I was 99% sure that I wanted to do this before.

It's been a month since I left my hometown and I'm not doing great here as usual. I thought that I'm gonna have a blast while I still have the whole summer in my hands to enjoy it. But as the days turn to weeks, I feel that I've never been away from home for so long. I miss all the things that we used to do together even before we graduated. Now I know how it really feels when you're in college. You thought that you'd be finally free from your parents but every single day you've spent in college, you suddenly have a feeling that you miss everything from the past. You feel homesick. Like you want to go home so badly but you can't because of college matters. Without you, Alice, I'm really NOTHING.

Last summer, when we were about to enter the last year of our high school lives, I was so excited. Now that we were seniors, we were so anxious for college. We thought that we can't wait to get out of our school and to graduate in style. We were really thrilled for college before. Now, it's the complete opposite of what we have thought before. College is full of misery and suffering. They said that college is better than high school, but actually, it's not. We were really sure that when we got to college, it's gonna fun, crazy, and to live young, wild, and free. But we were 101% wrong at all those things. Little did we know what dangers lie ahead in college. I'm trying to stay positive for college but actually, I'm not. I wanted to go back in time and to do our high school years all over again. I was wrong.

The only reason that I wanted to go to college is to run as far away as possible from my parents and to prove to them how much I'm willing to risk my life for college. Really, I was sick of them dictating me what to do just for my own good and for my safety. They really didn't realize that they had to let me go to college even if it really hurts for them to see me go away from and let them live my own way of life. I wanted to leave my parents so badly because I can't take it anymore that they're always watching me behind my back and that they're holding me back to do whatever I want in my life. Yeah, I wanted to go away from my parents so bad. However, the joy of leaving my parents behind was the sadness that I felt of missing them so much. I miss them so much and I can't celebrate Mother's Day without my mother around.

Maybe I didn't think this through, huh? Well, I figured that too. Maybe I was so negative to my parents on the way they treat me and how they raised me properly. I may have the "bad attitude" that my parents knew about me all along. But whatever plans they have for me in the years to come, I will always love them for they are my parents and they are the best parents in the world. For that, I should try to be a more sensitive person and be an appreciative son for the things that my parents sacrificed a lot just for me. No matter what happens, I will always be grateful to my parents for without them, I can't be who I am today. Thanks, for everything...

Has this ever happened to you, Alice?

Nathaniel