The Confession

Alice, 

It's been a month since graduation. Things are different. Without you to guide me, it's like I'm slowly killing myself without the thought of having the ones I love. I'm sure that you're having a wonderful time there with all our ex-classmates. Me? I'm having a hard time adapting to my new environment especially that I'm settling in a city full of mischief and misery. You know what? I miss you so much that it kills me to see you having a good time while I'm taking all the suffering that my family brought up about me. I don't want our relationship as best friends to fade by time because without you in my life, it's like I don't exist in this horrid world. Aside from that, if we haven't met in the first place and changed my life, I can't be the person I want to be right now. 

How's life? I'm sure that you're fine. Surrounded by what's left of our batch and meeting new friends along the way to college. It's really fun there to see you being happy for once, while I'm stuck here chasing my dreams and suddenly for no reason, these dreams were shattered to billions of pieces and now I'm trying to find those pieces as I continue to struggle to our new chapter in our lives, college. Right now, I feel so happy for you that we, together, survived the gruelling days of High School and now we face the difficult part of our lives. We’re so proud of each other’s accomplishments. 

I have a confession to make. It's better for us not be just best friends. I feel like I'm in those Friend-zone episodes that I need to get out of it and make it as a real relationship. Deep inside, I feel for you, but sadly you don't even see that I like you and you treat our relationship as best friends and nothing else beyond that. I wish that you would see the true me. I wish that we would still be in a relationship right now. 

I miss the memories we share together. They remind me to never give up in times of difficult decisions and challenges and those memories shape of what am I now today. No matter what happens, we still have each other as best friends and I hope that we would still be. Until here, Alice. It's been fun knowing you and having me as your best friend. 

GOODBYE...

For now... 

Nathaniel