The Collegiate Days

Alice,

It's now officially the start of the new chapter in my life.

Another school year opens. However, this isn't just any other ordinary class openings. This one was the toughest one that I had to face. This was the start of my new life. New university, new friends, new classmates, and everything that's new. I'm having an odd mixture of feelings inside me. I don't know that I'm going to be excited for the very first day or to be nervous. They say that it's normal for any new student, but for me, it's not. This was the setback that I was not really expecting. I keep on whining to myself on how am I going to live my new life when I'm not yet ready to face it. This loathing and excruciating experience was the one that pushed me through to do everything that I can in order to survive. Sadly, this feeling that I had was the start of the more suffering and pain that I have to go through.

The yesteryears. Oh, how they take me back to all the momentous things that we have done in high school. It marked in my life so much that I couldn't forget them every single day that I'm away from home for so long. I keep on moaning and weeping everyday because I miss all the memories that we had so much. I really wish that you were here at my side to guide me in everything that I do like we used to back then. Back then in high school, I always swore to myself that I'm going to do whatever it takes just to achieve in life. However, success always brought me down to the many things in life. I can't see the beauty of life if I always focus to road of success. I need to at least unwind a little bit and enjoy my teenage years as much as I can. Were almost close to being matured adults and still I can't one because of pressure in my life. This was the key in order to face my life wholeheartedly and without any regrets. This was the key that I had to break in order to be a matured, young adult.

Now that college is here, I have to put high school aside and face a new life. It hurts to forget all the memories that we had shared but I had to do it because college is complete and exact opposite of high school and no offense, but I think that it might be stupid to mention high school in college. So, I'm gonna have a low profile in college. I don't want to make a big impression in college for people to notice because they might think that I'm crazy. If high school was fun and games, here in college, you have to work and work and work until you get everything in shape. If high school was more on teamwork, in college, you have to do things on your own and no one even cares. If high school was full of fun and cherished moments, in college, everyday is not momentous as it used to before. I tell you, college is really the opposite of high school, but whatever I'm thinking right now, I know that I will never forget high school and all its memories.

Survival in college is inevitable. You really have to do whatever it takes just to survive college. When helping each other out was dominant in high school, in college, you'll just have to do everything yourself because it's time that you need to be independent and to show that you don't need anyone else in college. Some may need your help eventually, but you will never tolerate them because if you did, they might just take you for granted, and that's just so wrong on so many levels. But, one thing's for sure in college, you will learn to TRUST NO ONE and DO EVERYTHING ON YOUR OWN. So it's time to welcome college in our lives openly or painfully.

Good luck to the both of us in college, Alice.

P.S. It feels like FIFTEEN again...

Nathaniel